2 months gone by

And not a whole lot has changed! I'm still working my butt off, Nick's still working his off and the kids are all still kids.

We have been struggling in the finance department for about a month now.  I forgot to write something down and it snowballed.  Ended up losing $700 trying to get my bank account back in order.  That was hard.  We still haven't recovered from that and we probably won't for awhile.  Antonio has stopped paying child support for Elijah until we can get him to quit whining about what it is that the state wants him to pay.  They wanted almost $400 a month from him and he's fighting it because basically, it cancels out the $426 that we pay them for the girls.  So, we'll see.  We should be getting papers soon saying we have a telephone hearing coming up.  From losing that $200 a month in support and the $200 a month in food stamps, we are REALLY struggling right now.  We have lost our cell phones due to non-payment, we have our final notices for everything else.  We have to pay our car payments or they take our cars and we can't get to work.  We have to pay our insurance or else the same consequence occurs.  We have to buy food or we all starve (feeding 5-7 people is NOT cheap).  We have to have gas to drive said cars to get to work.  I haven't paid anything to my sitter in who knows how long.  Luckily, she's a good friend and doesn't depend on her daycare earnings for income.  I feel so guilty about it, but I really just can't pay her anything.  I have doctors calling me constantly about my medical bills...I just...I can't.

It's so hard knowing I am working my arse off and there isn't anything I can show for it.  I have dreams.  I have hopes.  I mean, we really *hope* to pay off the cars with next year's taxes, so we don't have to pay the car payments anymore.  I really *hope* that child support is going to come through soon.  We really ARE going to pay our tv off in 2 more months.  I can't give it back now, it's ours in 2 months! 

We can't do anything about Boatnik this year.  We are taking Eli to the parade on Saturday, my only day off for the whole Memorial Day weekend.  I work open to close on Sunday and open to close on Monday, which is when Nick will be at home, all day, by himself.  Well, Sunday he will be...Monday the oldest 2 will be home with him and the baby will come home around 5:30 that day.

The kids transferred to Redwood Elementary when we moved here and we are having soooo many problems with them that I just want to scream.  I don't want to go into too many details, but he was sent home from school Monday for ripping a page out of a book.  They got mad and sent him home saying he was vandalizing intentionally.  After I heard the story, I disagree.  So, yeah.

Well, it's about time for me to start getting ready for work.